Today is Blog Hop Thursday where we pick one of the following topics:
1. The 5-Question Filter. How are these 5 questions helping you discern God’s voice?
2. #SayWhat? Blog about a specific time God spoke to you and you had a “say what” moment.
3. Radical Obedience. Is there something God is asking you to give up? What specific steps do you need to take to fulfill this obedience?
It took me the longest time to think if I had ever experience that moment where I was like SAY WHAT GOD? Because I have been only a follower of Jesus Christ for two years now.
Then it hit me that I had not only one encounter but two of them that have not only left me with my mouth wide open saying SAY WHAT? Also the people around me at that time were left with SAY WHAT?
My first encounter was the day the Lord and I had it out in the bathroom back on July 4 of 2011. Let me give you all a short preview of what was going on back then the devil (which was me) and the Godly man ( which was boyfriend/turn into husband) came crashing head to head and it was an all out war for my soul.
Who will win God or the Devil was the question back then on the table?
At that time in my life I was very, very, very lost and very, very, very angry with God to the point I even hated Him! I had blame Him for every last detail that had ever happen to me in my life!
So when I meet Alvin (boyfriend/husband) I wanted nothing to do with his God! I let Alvin know that I was very angry with God and that I still had some serious issues that needed to be straighten out before I ever give all of myself to Him!
Alvin choose to keep on dating me and he choose to let God deal with me with me giving my life to Him. I was a drinker back them so Alvin decided to let me have a few drinks on July 4 of 2011 as we watch the Fireworks.
As the night was growing to an end we got in the car and started to head home, but I was not quite ready to go home. I was feeling kind of bubbly from the alcohol so I decided to ask Alvin if we could go to club?
As Alvin was driving he made his answer very clear to my suggestion he told me flat-out that he does not drink, he does not go to clubs, that does not do the things that world does, and he wants only what God wants!
I had a choice to make either him or my drinking/clubbing?
Well that was it! I was now even more furious with God! Before we could make it home my bladder was kicking in big time and I needed to use the restroom ASAP! So I told Alvin to find me a bathroom quick! Which he did.
When we got to the store I got out of that car so angry with Alvin and God that when I finally got into the bathroom I started yelling out to God ( yes yelling and I can’t tell you if anyone else was in that bathroom) but there I was in that stall yelling to God:
WHY DO I GOT TO BE THE ONE WHO HAS TO SUFFER ALL THE TIME BECAUSE HE WANTS YOU? I DON’T WANT YOU! BESIDES I AM ANGRY WITH YOU AND WE GOT SOME ISSUES THAT WE NEED TO DEAL WITH! I WANT TO GO OUT TO THE CLUBS HAVE SOME FUN BUT NO I CAN’T DO THAT WHY BECAUSE HE WANTS YOU!
AND IF I CHOOSE THE CLUBS OVER HIM THEN HE DOESN’T WANT ME NO MORE! THIS IS NOT FAIR GOD WHY DO I ALWAYS GOT TO BE THE ONE WHO HAS TO SUFFER SO EVERYONE ELSE CAN HAVE WHAT THEY WANT? WHY CAN’T I EVER HAVE WHAT I WANT?
Then out of nowhere I heard this very faint whisper of voice say to me: “I didn’t say to you that you couldn’t go out the clubs, go if you want to no one’s stopping you, but who’s going to love you in the morning? SAY WHAT?
Talk about a stop you in your tracks kind of moment I got up out of that bathroom got to the car got in it and look Alvin straight in the eyes and said to him get rid of the beer that is left now! And we will be going to Church on Sunday!
He say’s to me SAY WHAT! My reply to him was that I couldn’t explain anything to him that just happen to me in that bathroom till the next morning. To say the very least he was looking very baffled!
I had to make sure the beer wasn’t talking first but it wasn’t the beer that was sure enough God. I woke up that next day dumbfounded by what happen to me the night before but it happen God spoke to me! He had change me forever! Since that day I never had another craving for drugs or alcohol! Instant change! SAY WHAT?
Here’s a little something that I never shared with anyone about why that encounter impacted me so much that day in the bathroom.
Before my Father spoke to me that day I spent thirty-four and half years screaming, crying myself to sleep at night, begging and praying to God: HOW HARD CAN IT BE FOR YOU TO SEND ME SOMEONE WHO WILL LOVE ME UNCONDITIONALLY? That’s all I ever wanted was to be loved for me and not what someone wanted me to be!
He never did answer me till that day in that bathroom when He ask me: Who will love you in the morning? I had a choice to make the world or Him? I knew the world could never give me the unconditional love that I been crying out for so long! It was only through Him that I would find what my soul long for the most true unconditional love and I wasn’t going to let that get by me! SAY WHAT?
Number two: Back in June I decided to do a online study called THE RESPECT DARE CHALLENGE by Nina Roesner with a different set of woman through various Blogs. I was very reluctant to do this study because it was about learning to respect our husbands. Well respect and I was not too good of friends back then. Well I tried to run from the study, but the Holy Spirit was heavy on my heart to do the dare. SAY WHAT?
Reluctantly I gave in bought the book but still not promising I do the work that was require of me. Well day one came I decided to Blog what I was doing because there was a friend mines name Crissy who wanted to do it with me, but the only way we could do it together was through the computer because we lived different states.
So I posted day one and sent a copy to the other woman who were leading the other ladies in this dare thinking to myself that’s it I am done I did what I had to do good night. Well I got up that morning to check my email and to my surprise there’s an email from one of the leaders asking if I want to lead a group women on my Blog through this dare? SAY WHAT?
I was like SAY WHAT GOD? You want me to do what? Okay, now I know someone fell off their rockers because there is no way God I can lead a bunch of women in this dare!
I go to our bedroom to wake my husband up to tell him what I just read in my email and he was like SAY WHAT? I had to repeat myself because he was in disbelief too! He tells me that is wonderful honey God is sure using in mighty ways! I want you to lead the ladies on your Blog honey SAY WHAT ?
I decided that day not only to listen to God but my husband too. Ever since then I have had family and friends saying SAY WHAT? GOD TOLD YOU TO DO WHAT? NO WAY! SAY WHAT? God Bless To All…
Love Always One Of God’s Children 8/15/2013